Things That Changed In 2016! (New Year's Special)

Hello world.
I'm just glad I was able to get this blog post up because it was madness trying to find time to write. I'm on holiday, and I've been on the road looking at various beautiful historical sites. We'll need to put those into another blog post, for now.

With 2017 just around the corner, I felt like it was time to look back at the way my 2016 has gone. The various Tumblr and Instagram posts that discuss what a horrible year this was, this year has been pretty rough for me too.

I guess I'm going to be disclosing a lot more about myself through this post than I have before, and it's different to be sharing this with you, but I'm sure it'll be great :)

Alright! #LittleMissRewind2k16, let's go!

1. My home.

As I have mentioned, I moved away this year in July. It was crazy dealing with the prospect of moving away from the school and friends I'd been with for eight whole years. The days after the news was broken to me were filled with endless tears and blankly staring at the wall, wondering why nobody cared what I wanted.

It was definitely different, ending up in a new place, and knowing no one there but a few family members. I was luckily able to engage myself by helping my mom set up the house, unpacking, arranging my room - it took my my mind off the change. Luckily, I've started adjusting now and this really has started feeling like home.

2. My school.

Quite obviously, moving away from home meant changing schools. I was terribly apprehensive about the fact that people wouldn't like me, wouldn't deal with my fangirling, would find me weird, etc., etc., etc.

The first day was extremely weird for me - I roamed around by myself pretty much all day. It didn't affect me that much at school, but when I got home, everything hit me and I had a huge meltdown.

After about a month or two, though, I managed to make some more friends, and they're still by my side to this day. I'm glad I found them

I'd like to say everything feels like I belong perfectly now, but I know that isn't true. I'll probably be right in sync by the end of our second term at school... but this really wasn't as bad as I expected!

3. My Relationships.

I've gotten closer to many people this year, as well as removed many toxic people from my life.

Firstly, I distanced myself from a friend who came and went when it was convenient. We're still on good terms, and talk every once in a while, but I didn't think it was worth keeping this person in as someone close to me. A fight with this friend caused me to come close to doing something that harmed me. I also invested a lot of time in someone who ended up not really caring about me for who I am. I realised in the nick of time and was able to detach myself from this person.

Letting go of these people was as good a experience as all the wonderful new people that have come into my life! I got much closer to my cousin Sara and we are quite literally soulmates. I'm so glad I got close to her, we've developed such a wonderful friendship over just five months. Other than her, I've met amazing people like Blood Candy, Sierra, and Sadness among many others.

4. My Schedule.

This is pretty mundane compared to all the other things that I have mentioned, but it is something that changed.

I now have much less time during the day, since I reach home at 5 in the evening. I have much less homework than what I got in my previous school, which is good because I'm able to relax more, and bad because I'm just so CONFUSED about what to do with my time now!

5. My Passions

I've become much more passionate about music, not just in the amount I listen to, but I've also started practicing a few songs occasionally and I sing a lot more.

I've begun to narrow down on subjects that I like so that I'm not a lost soul in college and I'm sure of what I want to do...So I've now got history and environmental sciences (yes, now you may all make fun of me for not taking business studies and chemistry).

Other than that, my fangirling (which people now count as being "passionate") has become much more intense and I'm part of many more fandoms, like the Mortal Instruments fandom. I'm getting closer to joint the twenty øne piløts fandom too!

Here's to everyone that made my 2016 tons better:
- My mom and dad (of course!)
- Person
- Shark
- Island
- Rabbit
- Sara
- Blood Candy
- Sierra
- Sadness
- Dylan
- Anya
- Rebecca

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR BEING THERE FOR ME♥ (you all know who you are)

Phew! It's been a rough year, huh? We've lost so many amazing souls like Alan Rickman, Prince and Christina Grimmie in exchange for a man like TRUMP as President? (Not to offend any of his supporters)

Here's hoping that 2017 is a better year. Happy New Year to everyone...Have an awesome year ahead!

Little Miss Imperfect
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Why I Miss Winter (Christmas Special!)

Hello, World!!

We're two days from Christmas, and so obviously, magic is in the air, everyone is feeling cheerful, couples are getting ready to listen to Ariana Grande's 'Christmas and Chill', basic girls everywhere are taking endless pictures in oversized sweaters with coffee mugs to post on Tumblr, Superwoman has uploaded three Christmas videos so far, AND I AM WRITING A BLOG POST!

Well, as I may have mentioned in, like, every post so far, I have moved cities. In the place I used to live in earlier, we always had the best winter ever. There was never any snow, of course, but there was just enough chilly air to give you a great Christmas vibe. Sitting outside on a chilly winter morning with a cup of chocolate milk in my hand was something Person and I did almost every time we had a sleepover!

When I lived there, I always liked summer better. I thought winter was annoying, you know, having to wake up early in the morning and go to school wrapped up in four layers of clothing and shivering as you walked groggily through blankets of fog. I hated having to constantly clothe myself in more than two layers, I felt that I 'looked like an Eskimo'. I also did not have the luxury of swimming when I wanted to, as the pool was closed due to the cold.

So when I was told I was moving to a city closer to the sea, I was motivated by the fact that I could swim all year and look pretty all year because I would never have to wear more than two layers of clothing.  But now that Christmas is around the corner, I never expected to be missing winter.

For now, I feel like Ariana Grande in 'Winter Things'.

It ain't even cold outside, not where I'm from
Feeling like it's mid-July under the sun
My jacket don't get no love, no hats and no gloves, not even a chance to rain

It is literally 35 degrees (celsius) over here, and I sort of miss my hot chocolate every morning and snuggling under my mother's duvet that was so thick it looked about 2 feet above you when you were under it. I miss turning on the oil heater and snuggling under my blanket with a book. I miss buying a new pair of fuzzy slipper socks every year, and warming my hands over the gas stove when they got too cold.

I have a Christmas playlist this year, for the first time ever. But what's the point, when it speaks of cold and snow, and you're living in a place where the sun is shining brightly and you can parade about your house in shorts? Is it just me, or is there a sort of Christmas vibe you get that only comes with the cold? There's a sort of excitement like you can literally HEAR the jingle bells in your head when you wake up on Christmas morning and run to the tree to look at your presents. I don't know, is this just me?

Now that it's warm here, I doubt I'll even feel that vibe, and Christmas really is missing without it. I never thought I'd find myself saying this, but I really do miss my winter.

Little Miss Imperfect
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P.S: If you do not celebrate Christmas, I perfectly understand your beliefs and respect them. Please do not take this to heart and fill the comments section with anger about how we aren't Christians and shouldn't 'do' Christmas.

What I Thought would be a Not-So-Happy Birthday (Birthday Special!)

Hello World.

Guess whose birthday it is?



That's right.



MINE.

So well, happy birthday to me! And just to update you all, I had not a) died, b) been abducted by aliens and c) forgotten you all. I just had my final exams for this term, and I was so busy studying that I had no time to type a post whatsoever. No, not even a random update. Well, I guess now that I'm back, the world is happy. And damn, does it feel good to be typing again. Blogging seems to be addictive, well - your fingers often do itch to type a post and when you do - PURE HAPPINESS.

Well shall we begin with our birthday special post?

I started out dreading this birthday. It was the first I was spending in a new city, away from my best friends, and it was also the first birthday I spent giving my exams. My new friends in this school had exams to give too, and while I was giving only a simple Spanish oral exam, the others were giving complicated Physics and Chemistry papers (sincerely, I hope you all do well :D) Now why did I dread my birthday? I thought that everyone would forget my birthday in the exam confusion.

I knew that my friends were busy with exams and therefore I couldn't have a birthday party, as I was no one to come in the way of their grades. This meant that I wouldn't get any presents (except from maybe my parents and one or two family members), and as someone who had always done something small but LOADS of fun on their birthday, I knew I was going to miss that. I felt like this would be a horrible birthday, that people would ignore me and that I would basically have a really annoying, bad day where I only celebrated with family without my friends, making my celebration incomplete, which I didn't like.

As many times as I have experienced this phenomenon, I need to learn that any time I expect something, the exact opposite happens.

It began when I woke up this morning. My parents walked into the room singing the Happy Birthday song to wake me up, and gave me a gift (which made me pretty surprised considering that I had already got clothes for my birthday). My gift was two books, and non-fiction books with some of the most interesting titles that I'd seen. As I stepped off the bus and walked over to check the seating plan for my orals, I already started getting my first wishes - a bunch of people waiting  near the library wished me from above. Blood Candy promptly forgot my birthday in a frenzy for her Physics exam despite the fact that the chocolates I brought were right under her nose. She came to remember when many others like Sadness (yes this is a friend, again not his real name), Anya, Rebecca and Dylan wished me.

So many people that I didn't even expect would remember my birthday wished me or came and wrapped me in random hugs. One of my friends Sierra engulfed me in about ten hugs in the first five minutes in which I saw her, and I feel like she was more excited than I was. I even had the best oral ever, because my Spanish teacher made sure it was tons of fun and I was able to very freely converse in Spanish, and this time, I wasn't even anxious. As I left school early to proceed to my grandmother's house where I would spend the day, I happened to check my phone to see what was up with the world.

Google had given me a birthday doodle, and it is quite amazing how a web browser can make you feel special, but it did. Rabbit uploaded this really sweet birthday movie on Instagram with the most heart-warming message ever, Shark gave me a series of capital letters wishing me happy birthday that finally got me excited for my own birthday too. Sara's message is probably one that I most valued - all it said was 'Happy Birthday Soulmate!' but really it was the best thing ever. My group chat with the other 9th-graders at my school showed about ten people wishing me, and trust me, I never even expected so much love.

ALSO SAM UPLOADED THIS WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS SONG YESTERDAY AND TRUST ME I AM IN LOVE. I have been listening to it on repeat and it feels like a birthday gift too! Not to mention that the 2016 Pop Medley is also coming out soon (PROBABLY TOMORROW) and I CAN'T WAIT. I can't believe even my favourite YouTubers are literally making this the best day ever. (Which also reminds me Kurt Schneider replied to me on the 4th of December right before my exams started and just ASDFGHJKL)

Well, all I can say is, I think I won't expect things anymore. This has been such an amazing birthday and it's only halfway done (it's 12pm right now)! I don't even know what's left in store for me, and I'm sure this year will be amazing!

Wow. I just typed so much. I guess that's what happens when you don't post for three weeks ;)

I love you all! Have an amazing day!

Little Miss Imperfect
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SORRY :(

Hello, World.
I'm stupid, really really stupid. I'm so sorry.

I was trying to add labels to my blog and I ended up deleting five whole posts. And now, I can't get them back. I'm so, so, so sorry. So very sorry.

I'm so shocked that this happened - so many of those were really long posts that took ages to write. My hands are just shaking as I type this and I feel so shaken up...I can't believe I did that. It was a lot of hard work and I feel horrible and shaky and unstable right now. I didn't realize how much these posts meant to me, just pouring my heart into the Internet.

 I'm so, so sorry. So very sorry. I'll try to rewrite yesterday's post as best I can and bring it back for you, and I'll redo my 'Little Things' and 'Confessions' posts since those were both recent and popular.

As of now, please just hold out while I try to fix this stupid blunder I've made. I feel so horrible - I've just thrown all that work down the drain. And not just that, what about you guys? All you amazing people that have been reading, you probably had a favourite post that you just lost. No matter what I write to try and make up, I guess it all won't be the same at all. I'm really, really sorry. I'll try my best with these stupid exams - sometimes, I really hate school with every fibre of my being. Please just hold out for a while...I hope none of you are mad because I don't know what to do either.

Little Miss Imperfect
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Obsessions.

Hello, World.
Hmmm...do you notice something different? Do you? Do you do you do you?

*sensible me*: Duh, you changed your blog layout. Calm down and start the post.

*stupid me*: Hey, I'm just tryna be fun!

Literally, this is what goes on in my mind. But back to the post. This post is about all the books, movies, TV show(s) and music that I'm obsessed with. Just so you guys don't get bored when I don't post (that'll happen for a while now considering that I have exams in about two weeks.). So check these stuff out while you're bored or when you get pissed at me for not posting.

LET THE POST CO-MMENCE!

I do not know why I have to have a commencing line but I always do. I could just start the post normally. But well.

MUSIC. 

I honestly do not understand people who don't listen to music. Like hello? Music is a beautiful thing. Like what the hell do you do when you're feeling sad and your friends ditch you like a****les, (MY FRIENDS HAVE NOT DONE THAT THEY ARE AMAZING PEOPLE I AM SIMPLY CREATING A HYPOTHETICAL SITUATION.) cry to yourself? Nah, you, listen to music, it helps you get through the hard times! At least, it helps me. I like having the lyrics that relate to me, or just generally comfort me.

As someone who loves to sing, I listen to a LOT of pop music. Yes, I do listen to some of the general mainstream songs, but I do listen to more cover artists on YouTube or small-time artists. To begin with, I absolutely LOVE Sam Tsui and Kurt Schneider. Like it is this irrational love and obsession, which Sara shares with me and understands completely. Their  music makes me so happy when I'm sad. They are also two of the sweetest, amazing, and most talented people ever, make sure you go check them out and subscribe to them, you WILL fall in love with them just like I did. *intensifies*

Sam and Kurt's cover of Locked Away!! 

Currently, I'm obsessed with Little Mix's Glory Days album. I generally love LM as an artist, they are such sweet girls with such lovely and unique voices. Glory Days is filled with such sassy, pure pop songs that are SO enjoyable to listen to. So yeah, I have been loving that :) I also am enjoying the Nine Track Mind album by Charlie Puth. Everyone's obviously heard One Call Away, Marvin Gaye and We Don't Talk Anymore, but if you take the time to listen to the other songs, they're actually really sweet love songs and generally sound really good. (My Gospel from Nine Track Mind is definitely by favourite.)

Other than that, I do enjoy listening to other small-time artists like Alex G, Madilyn Bailey and Vidya Vox.

BOOKS.

Books make up such a crucial part of my day - I read every night before I sleep and regret closing a book to go back to daily activities. I just love the way books absorb me into their world. My favourite feeling is when I forget that I'm reading and the words just transform into pictures before my eyes.

So yes, I do read a lot of books. The Riordanverse is definitely the place where I invest most of my fangirling and obsessions. From The Kane Chronicles to Percy Jackson and The Heroes of Olympus, I have literally read all his series. I'm pretty eager to start reading Magnus Chase and the Hammer of Thor which has not yet happened because...

I am in the middle of The Mortal Instruments AND ONE DOES NOT LEAVE A SERIES INCOMPLETE. TMI seriously messes with your emotions and I STILL DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO MAKE OF IT OKAY.

Other than that I absolutely love HP and the Divergent trilogy. I do not get the huge deal with The Fault in our Stars, though I do like that book. Another recommendation to the world is Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard, one amazing book that deserves a huge fandom.

MOVIES.

I don't watch that many movies, but those that I do watch are hell damn good. Doctor Strange was awesome, AND OH MY GODS BENEDICT CUMBERBATCH was the best. I also LOVED Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them, it was pre-Voldemort magic at its best and it was just this amazing cool movie. Also, Eddie Redmayne looked quite striking, to water it down ;) ALSO GUYS PLEASE NOTE THAT NEWT SCAMANDER IS A HUFFLEPUFF #STARTHUFFLEPUFFLOVE! The HP movies and Lord of the Rings movies are also amazing! *intensifies again*

I do like quite a few animated movies, namely Inside Out and Alice Through the Looking Glass (Yes, I am a kid). Favourite Disney movies? Those have got to be Frozen (yes, so mainstream) and Brave.

TV SHOW(S). 

As I may have mentioned before, I watch only one TV show - and that is Sherlock. I cannot sit down and binge-watch episodes, I have no idea why. Maybe because my eyes hurt too much, or I just don't have the patience or the will, no matter what cliffhanger you give me. Speaking of Sherlock, though, I CANNOT WAIT FOR SEASON 4!!


And we have now reached the end of my list of obsessions. Damn, that was long. I hope y'all weren't bored...but if you are, be sure to check these out to bide your time while I don't post for a few weeks now. Goodbyeeee :)

Little Miss Imperfect
X

Little Things.

Hello, World!

Today you are all going to witness a very happy post! Since I was happy yesterday, (I shall explain why) and am still happy today (I shall explain that too), I chose to put it into a post.

Basically, these are little things that give everyone satisfaction. But before we begin, I would like to convey the reasons as to why I am 'a bundle of joy' (only people in my old school will get this). So yesterday and the day before that, I went back to my old school and city and I met all my best friends after literally four months and it was the best thing ever. By far the best week I've ever had.

Also, FANTASTIC BEASTS AND WHERE TO FIND THEM IS OUT!! YAY! AND I AM GOING TO WATCH IT!!! Also, I managed to get the ENTIRE Glory Days album on my laptop and phone without having to spend money on it! (Shoutout to the kind soul that posted all the songs on YouTube. I love you. See what I did there? Shoutout?)

Anyways, let us now commence this post!

1. Let's start normally - long hugs.  

Excepting people that aren't 'huggers' (why?), I'm sure everyone loves long hugs. Especially where you hug and you do that little waltz thing where you bounce on both legs (SHARK WHERE YOU AT.), or if you run towards each other from five miles away and literally knock every breath out of the other person. They're my favourite kind of hugs, and make me feel so happy to know that the other person missed me as much as I missed them.

2. Laughing for hours on. 

Island and Shark can relate to me on this one. Often laughing makes you really tired, but it also brings out such good energies, as I've come to realize. Laughing with others just makes the atmosphere all joyous and happy - even crying with laughter or 'almost getting asthma attacks' (SHARKKK) are just really the best feeling ever.

3. Taking the literal meanings out of songs.

Now this is literally the best activity anyone can do. Whether it's Adele's 'Hello' or Ariana Grande's 'Side to Side', making the songs sound stupid is the most hilarious activity one could possibly engage in.

Here are a few examples of the idiocy we create out of songs
"I've been here all night..."
You've been here all night? Then go home!
"I've been here all day..."
All day? Then go to sleep!
"And boy, you got me walking side to side!"
If you walking side to side, then go to hospital! Fix your legs!

Yes, that is lame, but doing it is fun and makes us laugh.

4. People that willingly compliment you, and you willingly compliment them

It's time for the introduction of a new person into my blog (I'm surprised I haven't mentioned her all this while) and we shall call her Rabbit. Rabbit is literally the sweetest and craziest idiot that I have ever met. She goes out of her way to keep anyone from feeling sad, so much that she often loses sight of her own problems and doesn't know what to do when she needs to deal with herself.

She's one person that always makes it a point to tell someone if she thinks they look pretty, explain what she loves about them and genuinely make them feel good about themselves. We often have these weird compliment sessions over chat which is just us debating that the other one is more gorgeous than us :D She is one person that helps me keep my confidence when I have none, and her sweet words are some of the little things that satisfy me so much. Rabbit, I am glad to have an amazing idiot like you in my life. Thank you for being there for me!

5. Finding a soulmate.

Let's be real, finding someone that really and truly understands you is the best thing ever. Finding people that understand almost every word you utter is magical and makes me so happy. Whether they are older than you, younger than you, or just your age, having them around is a comforting presence.

But even better than meeting them, is discovering that they understand you. You're left with this amazing feeling of exhilaration and happiness to know that there's someone like you out there, and it warms my heart. People like my very own cousin (let's call her Sara, of course not her real name) have become some of my best friends because of the way we bond. Of course, I shall not miss out people like Island, Person and Shark who understand me so well!

Wow, that was a long post. Well, thank you so much for reading it and hope you have a wonderful day ahead!

Little Miss Imperfect
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THANK YOU!

Hello, World!

I know I never usually post two days in a row. But today as I opened up my dashboard to see just what was up with my blog, I saw that so many of you are giving me so much love on all my posts! I got 42 views yesterday and 30 today, and it is increasing as I type this. Thank you all so much for supporting me and for all the love you guys are showing on my posts, I can't even say how much this means to me.

Another thing that warms my heart is seeing the wide audience of people worldwide that are reading my blog... the most obviously in India, followed by a large number of people in the USA and sometimes even France! This week I even got this select pageview from Kenya and I was like "Oh. My. God. KENYA??"

I have literally no words. Thank you all so much. I can't believe that I'm actually this happy despite the highly disappointing outcome of the election in the USA. (This is purely my opinion. I do not wish to offend anyone who supports Trump, and if you are happy with the outcome, then that I do not wish to contradict your emotions. I'm sorry, I just don't want any raging comment wars on this topic.)

In conclusion, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU! I feel like I have 1 million subscribers on YouTube or something...this is amazing. Thank you all so much...I love you guys :)

Little Miss Imperfect
X

P.S: Funny how I thought everyone would stop reading after my previous post, but instead my pageviews have just escalated XD Thanks again

Advantages of the Festive Season!!!

Hello World.

Yes, it is the Festive Season for any Indian worldwide. Happy Diwali, everyone! The Festive season is one that always arouses some sort of weird excitement in me... So lemme just bruh-bruh-bruck it down for you (#superwomanstyle)

Just so you know, I'm typing this on my phone while sitting at a relative's house because a) I'm bored and b) I need to update before I go on holiday tomorrow!

So shall we?

1. Feeling pretty
Lets get this straight. Dressing up is not something I generally do. After a party, im always the most relieved to get into my pajamas and chill with a book. But I've never been the most confident about my looks either. So dressing up to meet no one of any particular importance and looking really great (and feeling it and believing it) is a great feeling as it is one that I rarely feel.

2. Decorations
I'm stronger with music than I am with art, and my art skills usually depend on my willingness to draw/paint at that point. That explains why my fanart always turns out better than a general composition.

However, I do enjoy all the decoration that goes into Diwali - rangolis, lighting lamps, and watching the bright fairy lights glimmer every day. It gives a feeling of warmth and happiness, as cheesy as that sounds :)

3. Youre finally nice to all your friends!
C'mon, when people are dressed really nice, its hard not to compliment them. So, when the mirror selfies begin rolling in on Snapchat, you really are compelled to tell your friends how utterly gorgeous they look and hence, the Festive Season is a series of compliments. Blood Candy and I know this from personal experiences at school! (That moment when your phone runs low on battery while you are typing this post. NO PHONE STAY STRONG PLEASE!)

So yeah those are a few things I love about this Festive season. I bet most of you were expecting a Halloween post, but I'M INDIAN AND PROUD OF IT. (Also I dont have a Halloween costume hehehehe)

Thanks for reading this post, and please excuse any typos due to the amazingness of my phone's keyboard :)

Little Miss  Imperfect
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Random Update!!

Hello World.

This post is to assure you that I have not a) died, b) forgotten about my blog, c) decided to abandon this endeavour. If you had any of these misconceptions, I assure you that you were completely mistaken.

Well, I am quite sorry that I haven't uploaded in ages and literally just yesterday Island was murdering me for not posting at all. Well, I hope he's happy now. Another thing that I must inform you about is that I am sitting in the library at school writing this post and that shows how desperate I am :)

I'm sorry I haven't posted - firstly, I've been studying a lot and haven't had much time to update. Other than that, life has been treating me pretty well and I haven't had any experiences worth writing about. But since we're being faced with the so-called 'festive season', I shall be presenting you with many more posts.

Another thing I'd like to do with this random update is to thank all the amazing people reading my blog!! I've been getting so many pageviews (literally 17 yesterday!!!), and people worldwide are reading and that really warms my heart. So thanks for reading and listening to my pointless posts!

I'm sorry this was such a short and stupid post compared to what I usually write. It's just that my life is boring and I've got nothing to write about. Suggest in the comments down below what else you'd like me to write about :D

Little Miss Imperfect
X

Y'all must be waiting for me to stop giving shoutouts to my friends but that will never happen so please go check out my friend Blood Candy's blog! (Blood Candy is her blog name and she's one of the few friends that I have in my new school) Link - www.anoutcastinlove.blogspot.com

Reunions.

Hello World.

After seeing a pattern of posts that are filled with annoying rants, I decided to make this post a little happier and cheerier.

So today I decided to write about reunions. Not the boring family reunion kind of thing where you're surrounded by a bunch of family members you didn't know you had, remembering Alessia Cara's 'Here' and wishing she was 'here' to sing it with you (I'm sorry, that was a bad joke >.<). I speak of the kind of reunion where you really, really, really, missed someone and you finally end up meeting them again.

Recently I just haven't been feeling myself. Like I'm not 'sad' as you can say, but 'happy' isn't the perfect way to describe me either. I somehow really began missing my friends from my previous school and city a lot more, and for some odd reason feeling like I was a misfit and like I didn't belong in my new school, that no one liked me. Of course, that wasn't true.

But in the nick of time, I was told that my best friend (let's call her Shark, because she loves sharks. That's dumb, I know, but it is also an inside joke I will never let go of.) was going to come over, all the way from where I used to live, just to meet me.

That made me happy, and she finally came over yesterday. We began with a hug - not just any hug, those long five-minute hugs that last literally forever and you end up half-killing each other kind of hug that I love so much.

Catching up on our lives, school, and FANDOMS OF COURSE (hell yeah baby!), was the best thing ever. We spent most of our time binge-watching episodes of Maid Sama, an anime show (which I surprisingly liked, since I'm not the anime type) which was really cute. Go watch it, if you read this, it's amazing! (Look I am bringing people into the fandom, Shark!)  We were also twinning in our Sherlock t-shirts and we bought up half a bookstore :)

That, I guess, was the first time I'd felt true happiness after moving away.  I guess Shark's presence reassured me quite a bit, and now I'm not as morose and nostalgic as I was quite a few days ago. I guess all you need once in a while is love and chocolate :D (cliche, cliche, I know. But it's true!)

I guess it was a coincidence that she came on the same day that I moved away three months back - I really thank her for making my mood so much better and making me feel like I belonged again. From now I'm sure we'll have some happier posts coming your way, except for when some of my fandoms turn into a living hell (ah well isn't that 90% of the time.)

Thank you for reading! You're amazing! Have an awesome day!

Little Miss Imperfect
X

P.S.: I am pretty grateful for all the amazing people out there reading my blog posts because at least someone's around to listen to my rants and feelings. Y'all are crazy people, but I love you for being there for me :) Love <3

What It's Actually Like To Sing Live!

Heyyyy :)
As I mentioned a few posts ago (I just realized how weird that sounds), I love to sing. And I have also taken it as a subject at school. Sooo....I recently had my first live performance with a school band! *cue the YAY track* I was so excited (and also a little nervous) but it was amazing!

Here's what it's like to actually sing live..

For one thing, it's amazing. You get to hear what your own voice actually sounds like (whether it's like a dying walrus or like a beautiful fairy). Often the music playing around you (if it isn't a karaoke video) is slightly more muted than what the original song sounds like, and sometimes that sounds better. For instance, our band did Ride by twenty one pilots, and that's more of alternative rock. But we turned it into this AMAZING acoustic version that sounded pretty good too :)

You really get engrossed in the song as you practice - every beat, note and tone is engraved into you and you don't need to look at the lyrics on screen to sing after a point. You can also move to the music, or focus on the theatrical aspects of what you're doing rather than trying to focus on whether you're in time or in tune, since you're pretty familiar with the song. Obviously, I didn't attempt to dance or hype the so-called 'crowd', because hello? I've only recently joined my new school, and does it LOOK like I want to be judged? Do I LOOK like I'm a famous person? No one judges famous people. Nah, I'm a regular  teenager who constantly fangirls (does that make me regular?) and just happens to have a love for singing.

You get to know people! I am a pretty shy person, and I often don't exactly know how to make conversation unless someone else speaks to me. But when you meet other singers in the band, or the other players around you, you sort of bond over the music you guys like (or hate, though that's quite unimaginable). So I luckily have been able to start talking to a few more people and getting to know those guys too :).

You discover so much new music - and discovering music is something I enjoy SO MUCH. I literally change the songs I listen to every week ;D

Despite the amazingness (that isn't a word, I know. But guess what, I just created it, so DEAL WITH IT.) of that experience, you often begin to despise a song when you're expected to practice too much and listen to the same thing all the time. But other than that, I quite enjoy being in a band and singing with others too. It's loads of fun to practice, and the fruitfulness of what you finally accomplish is such an exhilarating feeling that it's hard to deny, really.

So yeah. My first experience performing live was pretty great...Though not many people walked up to me and complimented me, those that did gave me such amazing compliments that they kind of just made my day. I'm glad to know people appreciate that hard work we put in for like, two months on this song :D

Thank you guys for reading my post! 

Can I ask you amazing people that read my blog for a few favours? *angelic smile*

1. Well one thing you can do is to pleeeaaaaaseeeeee share this blog! I'm not attention-seeking or anything, I just want more bored people to have something to do in life and to try and brighten up someone's day (if my posts are that funny or nice hehe)! 
1. If you know who I am, then DISCLAIMER: this is an ANONYMOUS BLOG. Please do not, under any circumstances, mention the name of the writer to anyone. I do not wish to project my name as I don't feel that it's important, as long we just know that we understand each other and can bond over my writing. Peace :) 
2. If you read these posts, please write anything you feel like in the comments section down below (If this was a video, I'd do it Kurt Schneider style :D). You don't have to tell me how amazing or horrible I am, just please say if you can relate, or suggest what else you'd like to see me post about here. I need ideas! Because I don't often get them in this boring life that I lead!

Thanks for reading! You're amazing! Have an awesome day! 

Byeeeeeee :)

Little Miss Imperfect 

P.S: That is a crazy name, apparently haha. So many people have laughed at me because I've put that as my Google+ name...but those are only the guys that don't know I have a blog (that's a lot of people...hmm). I don't really care, though - it's better than commenting with my real name and calling my blog anonymous - that would be highly paradoxical. 

Why Being Smart Isn't Always the Best

Welcome back to my blog! 

It has been quite long since I posted. A lot of factors contributed to that including a really fun school trip and not being able to think of  what to write (still not a pro at this, remember?). 

But here I am with another crazy little piece of prose for you to read. 

I bet loads of you are in school right now with exams and all like "oh my god, I'm failing all my tests, ugh why can't I be smart, etc. etc." If I may say so myself, I feel like I am a pretty good student (basically I do my work on time and always study and get good grades. I'm boring :1).

Buuuuuut being smart isn't ALWAYS the coolest thing...here's why. 

1. Knowing Too Much

Every once in a while, I am way ahead of the class in whatever I know about the topic that is currently being taught. ESPECIALLY MATH CLASS. That's because I take a specific kind of math tuition that allows me to be around two years ahead of school level (what was that? No, I still mess up in my tests.).

So I be sitting here solving my sums in one step and the rest of the class is staring at me like I'm some alien. And y'all are probably thinking, but isn't that GOOD? 

My answer to you is, NO. Because finishing all the assignments first is something that is oddly disconcerting for me...like just sitting there with your sheet done trying to figure out what to make of your life isn't something I enjoy. 

2. That one time you got bad grades is now unforgettable

So you mess up in one test. And you're like, wow, I messed up, I'm so dumb, etc. etc. Trying not to feel too bad about it and trying to stop cursing yourself for making such stupid mistakes. 

Then this kid, probably who doesn't get great grades, probably gets average grades, walks up to you. And the usual question "how much did you get?" And you are forced to spit out the horrible implications of your test paper. 

And then all these people (who think you're apparently the smartest) begin jumping up and down shouting, "Oh my gods! I got higher than her! I am so honoured! I got higher than her, look dude, I got higher than her!" 

Okay don't get me wrong. I appreciate your respect towards me and my brains. But please do not fangirl over my low grades that you surpassed. It makes me feel like I have let myself down even more. So please just either be sympathetic or don't react. Thank you very much. 

3. PERFECTIONISM. 

You know how they say that someone 'raises the bar'? Well, my bar is literally in outer space. That is where my standards are. I can be pretty content with up to three marks below the highest mark. But below that is too low for me. (Yes, now I bet you're imagining me getting the lowest mark. Go ahead.)

And all the people are questioning how you're not happy with what you got, but my question is HOW ARE YOU HAPPY WITH THOSE GRADES? Yes, we all turn into perfectionists. 

4. Hello, my name is Baymax, and I'm your personal tuition teacher! (Not.) 

BIG HERO 6 FAM, WHERE YOU AT? 

Returning to the point. I love helping people. It's nice to see someone say thank you and go off happily with a smile on their face. I'm not THAT mean. 

But always having to help people is KIND of annoying... So many people in my previous school would come running up to me asking so many things and often I wasn't really in the mood to turn into their professional tuition teacher. But knowing things and being a good student does have SO many advantages like this one! (sarcasm implied.) 

So those were a few things that aren't so great about being smart. Obviously, It does have SO MANY MORE  amazing implications to it - you get good grades, teachers like you and listen to you...it's not that bad. 

Thanks for reading my post! 

Love you all!!

Little Miss Imperfect 

P.S: Yesss!! I finally have found myself an anonymous name! I hope you guys like it. This post was dedicated to my best friend (who also has a birthday tomorrow!) - let's call her Person. Also I hope this post didn't make me seem narcissistic in any way because that's not what I meant to happen!! 

Because I'm down to earth, keep on falling when I know it hurts, going faster than a million miles an hour - I should stop singing Infinity by One Direction now. Byeeeeeeeee!! 

How Do I Start?

Just to inform you, notify you, and explain to you. Writing a blog is not something I'm used to. It isn't something I've done before. It's definitely not something I'm a pro at.

But it wouldn't hurt to try.

So here's my first post.

I'm not going to begin with all that sappy stuff about how I need to "express my feelings" and I have "no one to talk to". This came simply out of my mind as something to focus on while I'm extremely bored with nothing better to do at all (which is a state I'm often in, when I'm not studying). I just like to write and I also felt like my weird self should be exposed SOMEWHERE. So that's why I started this.

Well anyway. I bet you don't even know who I am and here I am just rattling on about blogging. How utterly silly of me. I'd like to keep my name anonymous for now, because that's the whole POINT of a blog - nobody is meant to know who on Earth you are (except your friends who read this, of course). I'd like to consider myself a professional fangirl with a part-time job as a student. I do have extensive numbers of fandoms and often find myself overexcited for incidents that plain mortals (or Muggles, shall I say?) would find quite mundane, just like themselves (ah Mortal Instruments.).

My other hobbies excluding fangirling are singing and losing myself in my world of books (while assaulting my emotions through them). Other than that, I enjoy socializing with fellow fangirls (and boys, don't think I forgot you, Island) or just generally hanging out with friends.

Since I don't have much else of consequence to put into this post right now, I shall stop here.

Until next time,
Still Trying to Think of a Cool Anonymous Name

(P.S: If you are wondering who Island is, Island is a code name for one of my best friends. He has been kept anonymous, just like all other names on this blog will be as well. He has a blog too - go check it out on www.yourstrulywithglasses.weebly.com. Yes, I did just give him a shoutout. Trust me, you'll love it. Now I'm going to shut up. Goodbyeeeeeee)