Things That Changed In 2016! (New Year's Special)

Hello world.
I'm just glad I was able to get this blog post up because it was madness trying to find time to write. I'm on holiday, and I've been on the road looking at various beautiful historical sites. We'll need to put those into another blog post, for now.

With 2017 just around the corner, I felt like it was time to look back at the way my 2016 has gone. The various Tumblr and Instagram posts that discuss what a horrible year this was, this year has been pretty rough for me too.

I guess I'm going to be disclosing a lot more about myself through this post than I have before, and it's different to be sharing this with you, but I'm sure it'll be great :)

Alright! #LittleMissRewind2k16, let's go!

1. My home.

As I have mentioned, I moved away this year in July. It was crazy dealing with the prospect of moving away from the school and friends I'd been with for eight whole years. The days after the news was broken to me were filled with endless tears and blankly staring at the wall, wondering why nobody cared what I wanted.

It was definitely different, ending up in a new place, and knowing no one there but a few family members. I was luckily able to engage myself by helping my mom set up the house, unpacking, arranging my room - it took my my mind off the change. Luckily, I've started adjusting now and this really has started feeling like home.

2. My school.

Quite obviously, moving away from home meant changing schools. I was terribly apprehensive about the fact that people wouldn't like me, wouldn't deal with my fangirling, would find me weird, etc., etc., etc.

The first day was extremely weird for me - I roamed around by myself pretty much all day. It didn't affect me that much at school, but when I got home, everything hit me and I had a huge meltdown.

After about a month or two, though, I managed to make some more friends, and they're still by my side to this day. I'm glad I found them

I'd like to say everything feels like I belong perfectly now, but I know that isn't true. I'll probably be right in sync by the end of our second term at school... but this really wasn't as bad as I expected!

3. My Relationships.

I've gotten closer to many people this year, as well as removed many toxic people from my life.

Firstly, I distanced myself from a friend who came and went when it was convenient. We're still on good terms, and talk every once in a while, but I didn't think it was worth keeping this person in as someone close to me. A fight with this friend caused me to come close to doing something that harmed me. I also invested a lot of time in someone who ended up not really caring about me for who I am. I realised in the nick of time and was able to detach myself from this person.

Letting go of these people was as good a experience as all the wonderful new people that have come into my life! I got much closer to my cousin Sara and we are quite literally soulmates. I'm so glad I got close to her, we've developed such a wonderful friendship over just five months. Other than her, I've met amazing people like Blood Candy, Sierra, and Sadness among many others.

4. My Schedule.

This is pretty mundane compared to all the other things that I have mentioned, but it is something that changed.

I now have much less time during the day, since I reach home at 5 in the evening. I have much less homework than what I got in my previous school, which is good because I'm able to relax more, and bad because I'm just so CONFUSED about what to do with my time now!

5. My Passions

I've become much more passionate about music, not just in the amount I listen to, but I've also started practicing a few songs occasionally and I sing a lot more.

I've begun to narrow down on subjects that I like so that I'm not a lost soul in college and I'm sure of what I want to do...So I've now got history and environmental sciences (yes, now you may all make fun of me for not taking business studies and chemistry).

Other than that, my fangirling (which people now count as being "passionate") has become much more intense and I'm part of many more fandoms, like the Mortal Instruments fandom. I'm getting closer to joint the twenty øne piløts fandom too!

Here's to everyone that made my 2016 tons better:
- My mom and dad (of course!)
- Person
- Shark
- Island
- Rabbit
- Sara
- Blood Candy
- Sierra
- Sadness
- Dylan
- Anya
- Rebecca

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR BEING THERE FOR ME♥ (you all know who you are)

Phew! It's been a rough year, huh? We've lost so many amazing souls like Alan Rickman, Prince and Christina Grimmie in exchange for a man like TRUMP as President? (Not to offend any of his supporters)

Here's hoping that 2017 is a better year. Happy New Year to everyone...Have an awesome year ahead!

Little Miss Imperfect
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Why I Miss Winter (Christmas Special!)

Hello, World!!

We're two days from Christmas, and so obviously, magic is in the air, everyone is feeling cheerful, couples are getting ready to listen to Ariana Grande's 'Christmas and Chill', basic girls everywhere are taking endless pictures in oversized sweaters with coffee mugs to post on Tumblr, Superwoman has uploaded three Christmas videos so far, AND I AM WRITING A BLOG POST!

Well, as I may have mentioned in, like, every post so far, I have moved cities. In the place I used to live in earlier, we always had the best winter ever. There was never any snow, of course, but there was just enough chilly air to give you a great Christmas vibe. Sitting outside on a chilly winter morning with a cup of chocolate milk in my hand was something Person and I did almost every time we had a sleepover!

When I lived there, I always liked summer better. I thought winter was annoying, you know, having to wake up early in the morning and go to school wrapped up in four layers of clothing and shivering as you walked groggily through blankets of fog. I hated having to constantly clothe myself in more than two layers, I felt that I 'looked like an Eskimo'. I also did not have the luxury of swimming when I wanted to, as the pool was closed due to the cold.

So when I was told I was moving to a city closer to the sea, I was motivated by the fact that I could swim all year and look pretty all year because I would never have to wear more than two layers of clothing.  But now that Christmas is around the corner, I never expected to be missing winter.

For now, I feel like Ariana Grande in 'Winter Things'.

It ain't even cold outside, not where I'm from
Feeling like it's mid-July under the sun
My jacket don't get no love, no hats and no gloves, not even a chance to rain

It is literally 35 degrees (celsius) over here, and I sort of miss my hot chocolate every morning and snuggling under my mother's duvet that was so thick it looked about 2 feet above you when you were under it. I miss turning on the oil heater and snuggling under my blanket with a book. I miss buying a new pair of fuzzy slipper socks every year, and warming my hands over the gas stove when they got too cold.

I have a Christmas playlist this year, for the first time ever. But what's the point, when it speaks of cold and snow, and you're living in a place where the sun is shining brightly and you can parade about your house in shorts? Is it just me, or is there a sort of Christmas vibe you get that only comes with the cold? There's a sort of excitement like you can literally HEAR the jingle bells in your head when you wake up on Christmas morning and run to the tree to look at your presents. I don't know, is this just me?

Now that it's warm here, I doubt I'll even feel that vibe, and Christmas really is missing without it. I never thought I'd find myself saying this, but I really do miss my winter.

Little Miss Imperfect
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P.S: If you do not celebrate Christmas, I perfectly understand your beliefs and respect them. Please do not take this to heart and fill the comments section with anger about how we aren't Christians and shouldn't 'do' Christmas.

What I Thought would be a Not-So-Happy Birthday (Birthday Special!)

Hello World.

Guess whose birthday it is?



That's right.



MINE.

So well, happy birthday to me! And just to update you all, I had not a) died, b) been abducted by aliens and c) forgotten you all. I just had my final exams for this term, and I was so busy studying that I had no time to type a post whatsoever. No, not even a random update. Well, I guess now that I'm back, the world is happy. And damn, does it feel good to be typing again. Blogging seems to be addictive, well - your fingers often do itch to type a post and when you do - PURE HAPPINESS.

Well shall we begin with our birthday special post?

I started out dreading this birthday. It was the first I was spending in a new city, away from my best friends, and it was also the first birthday I spent giving my exams. My new friends in this school had exams to give too, and while I was giving only a simple Spanish oral exam, the others were giving complicated Physics and Chemistry papers (sincerely, I hope you all do well :D) Now why did I dread my birthday? I thought that everyone would forget my birthday in the exam confusion.

I knew that my friends were busy with exams and therefore I couldn't have a birthday party, as I was no one to come in the way of their grades. This meant that I wouldn't get any presents (except from maybe my parents and one or two family members), and as someone who had always done something small but LOADS of fun on their birthday, I knew I was going to miss that. I felt like this would be a horrible birthday, that people would ignore me and that I would basically have a really annoying, bad day where I only celebrated with family without my friends, making my celebration incomplete, which I didn't like.

As many times as I have experienced this phenomenon, I need to learn that any time I expect something, the exact opposite happens.

It began when I woke up this morning. My parents walked into the room singing the Happy Birthday song to wake me up, and gave me a gift (which made me pretty surprised considering that I had already got clothes for my birthday). My gift was two books, and non-fiction books with some of the most interesting titles that I'd seen. As I stepped off the bus and walked over to check the seating plan for my orals, I already started getting my first wishes - a bunch of people waiting  near the library wished me from above. Blood Candy promptly forgot my birthday in a frenzy for her Physics exam despite the fact that the chocolates I brought were right under her nose. She came to remember when many others like Sadness (yes this is a friend, again not his real name), Anya, Rebecca and Dylan wished me.

So many people that I didn't even expect would remember my birthday wished me or came and wrapped me in random hugs. One of my friends Sierra engulfed me in about ten hugs in the first five minutes in which I saw her, and I feel like she was more excited than I was. I even had the best oral ever, because my Spanish teacher made sure it was tons of fun and I was able to very freely converse in Spanish, and this time, I wasn't even anxious. As I left school early to proceed to my grandmother's house where I would spend the day, I happened to check my phone to see what was up with the world.

Google had given me a birthday doodle, and it is quite amazing how a web browser can make you feel special, but it did. Rabbit uploaded this really sweet birthday movie on Instagram with the most heart-warming message ever, Shark gave me a series of capital letters wishing me happy birthday that finally got me excited for my own birthday too. Sara's message is probably one that I most valued - all it said was 'Happy Birthday Soulmate!' but really it was the best thing ever. My group chat with the other 9th-graders at my school showed about ten people wishing me, and trust me, I never even expected so much love.

ALSO SAM UPLOADED THIS WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS SONG YESTERDAY AND TRUST ME I AM IN LOVE. I have been listening to it on repeat and it feels like a birthday gift too! Not to mention that the 2016 Pop Medley is also coming out soon (PROBABLY TOMORROW) and I CAN'T WAIT. I can't believe even my favourite YouTubers are literally making this the best day ever. (Which also reminds me Kurt Schneider replied to me on the 4th of December right before my exams started and just ASDFGHJKL)

Well, all I can say is, I think I won't expect things anymore. This has been such an amazing birthday and it's only halfway done (it's 12pm right now)! I don't even know what's left in store for me, and I'm sure this year will be amazing!

Wow. I just typed so much. I guess that's what happens when you don't post for three weeks ;)

I love you all! Have an amazing day!

Little Miss Imperfect
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