Monday, 29 May 2017

13 Reasons Why and Suicide.

Hello, World!
Guess who finally found something concrete to write about?

That's right - me!

(The following text may contain spoilers. If you live under a heavier rock than me and haven't watched/haven't finished watching the show, read the following text at your own risk.)

So I recently finished the series 13 Reasons Why (yes, I'm late, I know, I just take ages to watch a show). I have extremely mixed feelings about this series. As a show, gripping, interesting and you couldn't stop watching. An interesting concept to keep the viewers hooked on. I definitely couldn't stop watching, it was addictive and overall, plot-wise, it was a great story.

But there were so many things that just didn't make sense at all, or that were just plain wrong. One, this show seemed to slightly romanticize suicide - making it seem like "hey, guys, look, my life sucks and I don't seem to think it's getting better in the foreseeable future, how about I just kill myself and escape it!" Sure, Hannah was wronged, in many ways, but it's not like she didn't have outlets - for example, she had amazing parents who would definitely have been willing to do anything for her, including move away and start over.

Two, graphic scenes. Some of the scenes were so graphic it wasn't even necessary to put them there in the first place. The rape scenes, though not shown completely, and, of course, Hannah slitting her wrists. Both were gory and kind of scary (maybe I'm just soft-hearted, but really.). Really have no idea why they were there.

Three, why was Clay blamed? I completely understand that Clay was the main character and without him the whole show wouldn't even exist, but seriously? I don't know what I was expecting out of Tape 11, but I guess it definitely wasn't that Clay was blamed because he - left? After Hannah literally abused at him and told him to leave? I don't see how he was wrong in literally just doing what she wanted him to. Maybe it was her own guilt, but I don't feel like Clay should've been blamed for that.

Aside from my stupid questions about the show that everyone else definitely didn't have, I feel like suicide should really never be an option. Maybe I'm really not one to talk, because I wouldn't know or understand. But what I do want to assure you guys is that if things do get that bad, then please, don't keep it to yourself, share it with someone, anyone, who you think you can trust. They don't have to be a counselor or a therapist - just someone you trust, like your mom or dad or friend or teacher. Maybe you're scared they'll judge you or get angry - but if they love you and care for you, and would literally do anything to see you happy, then none of that will happen.If you don't want them to worry about you, you can't control that. Even if you don't talk to them, they're looking out for you because they love you and want the best for you. Please know that someone will always be there for you, and even if you don't feel like they are, someone does care about you. I may not be some qualified psychiatrist or psychologist, but if anyone does need help, I will try to be available and help out as much as possible.

If anything, watching this show taught me that not fighting back, not talking, and just bearing pain that's gone way past your breaking point is never the way to go about anything, and would, eventually, end up leading to disaster.

Little Miss Imperfect
X

P.S: Heyyy! Sorry for this extremely depressing, sad, and serious post. I just thought it was necessary to put up something about this show, since it's been so controversial and so widely spoken about. Please do know that anything I may have said here is PURELY my opinion, and I did not wish to offend or hurt anyone through this post. I hope it helped many of you, thanks for reading :)

Saturday, 20 May 2017

Not Really A Post.

Hello, World.

It's me!

.....Mario!


Sorry.

I'm sorry I haven't posted in so long. This is not really a post, it's just an update explaining why I didn't post and won't be doing so for a while. I wasn't planning on posting until I could actually find time, but I still did. More on that later.

There are various reasons I haven't posted. Part of it was just life - I have exams in two weeks, so I've been studying quite a bit. Most of it was just that something has been quite off for the last month or so. I haven't been as happy as I usually was, I've felt unwanted and invisible, little things have started making me extremely insecure and angry, and just a general sort of sadness would kick in at random times. Hey, I'm still trying to figure it out myself.

Why didn't I talk about it here, you ask? Well, because as I went through my posts on this blog, I saw that most of them were happy and bright. I didn't want to change the theme of this blog - like this ain't Instagram, you can't just put in three blank pictures like "THEME CHANGE!!!!!!"

Buuuut it did lead to some new beginnings, for example, I've started writing my own songs! I will post them on here later, once I'm more comfortable showing them to the whole internet.

Now for the second part of this post...why I came back in the middle of my study time (I'm supposed to be looking at literature right now. I'm an idiot.).

Well, so today I opened up my blog again and I was like, "hey, I haven't checked how many page-views I've got in ages! Let me check!" And well, here is what my audience looked like in the past month:


I was like, "WHAAAA???" There are more people viewing my blog in Russia than in where I live right now and that is genuinely amazing. People in South Africa are viewing my blog, and god even knows why. I have no idea where 'Czechia' is, but there is one lovely viewer over there too (I'm sorry, I don't know why I chose IGCSE Geography either.). HOLA MI AMIGO/A ESPANOL/A!!!! COMO ESTAS???? Sorry this is like my basic Spanish okay I'm good at Spanish but I can't make conversation lol adios muchas gracias por leer :)))) (and also my keyboard doesn't support accents soooo....sorry....) Also Ukrainians, y'all are pretty bored, man, thanks for reading.

Honestly, I don't even know if any of you actually read my posts or like stare at my amazing theme, but whatever interests you on here, I love each of you and you never fail to make my day and make me feel loved, I now feel so much better all thanks to you nice lovely people who are just little, bored unicorns. :)) 

Thank you for making my day and helping this random weird sadness monster thingy BACK OFF FOR A BIT. Like, really. Y'all are real nice okay thenk you thenk you

Little Miss Imperfect
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