Hello, World.
I wrote this post because right now I am kind of freaking out over what would seem to the world like the littlest thing ever but my very angsty brain obviously extrapolates it into something that makes the world seem like it's about to end and that all doom is about to befall me.
So as I sit here desperately trying to calm myself, I will write you this blog post about the way I overthink and overanalyze every little thing that happens.
As I mentioned, there is an event going on at my school this week. It is very interactive and hence we have been divided into these groups called 'barazzas' (Please don't ask me who invented that word, I don't know either.). So each group has two leaders, and I, being one of them, had to stay back today. I chose not to, but did not notify anyone. This obviously made my counterpart extremely irritated as a) she stayed back, and b) IB is hard AF, and she didn't appreciate that I wasn't there while she skipped work hours for me. I understand her annoyance, of course. That obviously made me really scared, because I hate people getting annoyed with me, and especially really angry like that.
I also did quite a bit of work in figuring out what we were to discuss in our 'barazzas', but my counterpart did not agree with my topics and supposedly changed everything I had done. More overanalyzing and anxiety committed most beautifully by my brain, hurray! So there I was pretty much shaking because someone was pissed and did not agree with me. Yes. This is the cause for me freaking out, as my brain went ahead to ask the following questions:
Brain: What if she hates me?
Me: Yeah, but I apologise -
Brain: What if she stays pissed at me?
Me: She probably won't, calm -
Brain: What if we don't agree?
Me: We'll figure it out, it's -
Brain: OHYMGOD THIS IS NOT OKAY SHE HATES ME WHY WHY WE ARE GOING TO DIE O H NO N O N O W H A T W I LL H A PP E N
Me: *freaks out with brain*
Yeah, I actually had a fun day and I did manage to ruin it for myself most wonderfully in this manner. And that, my friends, is how I overthink and freak out over nothing in particular. *bows*
Thanks for reading!
Little Miss Imperfect
X
P.S: Surprisingly, writing this out made me feel so much better. I don't feel half as freaked out as I was a few minutes ago. And sharing it with you somehow makes it all better :P
I wrote this post because right now I am kind of freaking out over what would seem to the world like the littlest thing ever but my very angsty brain obviously extrapolates it into something that makes the world seem like it's about to end and that all doom is about to befall me.
So as I sit here desperately trying to calm myself, I will write you this blog post about the way I overthink and overanalyze every little thing that happens.
As I mentioned, there is an event going on at my school this week. It is very interactive and hence we have been divided into these groups called 'barazzas' (Please don't ask me who invented that word, I don't know either.). So each group has two leaders, and I, being one of them, had to stay back today. I chose not to, but did not notify anyone. This obviously made my counterpart extremely irritated as a) she stayed back, and b) IB is hard AF, and she didn't appreciate that I wasn't there while she skipped work hours for me. I understand her annoyance, of course. That obviously made me really scared, because I hate people getting annoyed with me, and especially really angry like that.
I also did quite a bit of work in figuring out what we were to discuss in our 'barazzas', but my counterpart did not agree with my topics and supposedly changed everything I had done. More overanalyzing and anxiety committed most beautifully by my brain, hurray! So there I was pretty much shaking because someone was pissed and did not agree with me. Yes. This is the cause for me freaking out, as my brain went ahead to ask the following questions:
Brain: What if she hates me?
Me: Yeah, but I apologise -
Brain: What if she stays pissed at me?
Me: She probably won't, calm -
Brain: What if we don't agree?
Me: We'll figure it out, it's -
Brain: OHYMGOD THIS IS NOT OKAY SHE HATES ME WHY WHY WE ARE GOING TO DIE O H NO N O N O W H A T W I LL H A PP E N
Me: *freaks out with brain*
Yeah, I actually had a fun day and I did manage to ruin it for myself most wonderfully in this manner. And that, my friends, is how I overthink and freak out over nothing in particular. *bows*
Thanks for reading!
Little Miss Imperfect
X
P.S: Surprisingly, writing this out made me feel so much better. I don't feel half as freaked out as I was a few minutes ago. And sharing it with you somehow makes it all better :P
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